Kim Kardashian Kontinues "Waist Training," Being a Terrible Person

In a recent interview, Kim Kardashian said she deserves respect because she works very hard.

She then took to Instagram and took a picture of her minute body.

Kim Kardashian in Waist Training

“I’m really obsessed with waist training! Thank you @premadonna87 for my new waist shapers! #whatsawaist,” Kim captioned the picture, for which she was clearly paid a hefty sum.

This isn’t the first time Kardashian has acted like an atrocious role model for young fans around the globe.

Instead of passing along positive messages about self-confidence and body image, Kim Instagrammed an image of herself wearing a corset from What’s a Waist in August. It retails at $143.50.

That’s an impressive double from Kardashian: she is telling fans that they should both aim to be as thin as possible AND that they should shell out a lot of money (for a complete ridiculous item) in order to attain that goal.

Anyone else feel really, really sorry for North West?

Women’s Health Magazine asked Mary Jane Minkin – the clinical professor of obstetrics and gynecology at Yale School of Medicine – about this absurd What a Waist corset and she replied:

“Once you take the garment off, your body will return to its usual shape. It’s also uncomfortable, restricts your movements, and if you wear it really tight, it can even make it difficult to breathe and theoretically could cause rib damage.”

But, hey… keep cashing those checks, Kim!

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Juan Pablo Galavis Used Nikki Ferrell for Fame, Relevance: Shocking Report!

It remains stunning, yet true: Juan Pablo Galavis and Nikki Ferrell have broken up.

Despite their constant fighting and nagging and pestering – along with Juan Pablo’s refusal to ever tell Nikki that he loved her – the couple called it quits earlier this month.

Who dumped whom and why

Juan Pablo and Nikki Ferrell Kiss

Juan Pablo Galavis and Nikki Ferrell kiss in a cute photo.

As anyone who has ever watched Couples Therapy online can attest to, Nikki clearly wanted to settle down and Juan Pablo did not. (Nikki also wanted to be with a man who loved and respected her. Crazy, right?!?)

So, considering their obvious issues and a lack of reciprocated feelings, why did this relationship even last as long as it did?

“The main reason Juan stayed with Nikki was to spite all the haters who thought they would break up, and to stay relevant so he could promote himself,” an insider tells Us Weekly, adding of Juan Pablo’s career aspirations:

“Juan wants to be a soccer or baseball commentator, and also a manager for high-profile Latin athletes.”

Conversely, Ferrell was in it due to actual affection for the former Bachelor star.

“Juan did say ‘I love you’ to Nikki, but only a couple of times,” the source says of Ferrell. “She wanted [him] to say it every time they spoke, and he couldn’t do that.”

Location was also an issue for Galavis and Ferrell, as Juan Pablo wanted Nikki to move to Miami and never considered going to Kansas.

“She couldn’t get him to compromise at all,” the mole concludes. “Everything Nikki wanted, he didn’t.”

That sort of thing is difficult to overcome in a relationship, it’s true.

So while Nikki Ferrell and Juan Pablo Galavis lick their wounds from this split, there is one person smiling right now: Chris Soules.

The Bachelor bar for this attractive single – who will start handing out roses to desperate women in January on ABC – has been set very, very, very VERY low by Juan Pablo.

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Kylie Jenner Compares Lips With Khloe Kardashian, Flips Off Haters With Bruce Jenner

As you might already know, Kylie Jenner is obsessed with Instagram. So when there’s some drama in her life (which is always) she addresses it by sharing pics with her millions of followers.

This week she tackled two rumors with a pair of seemingly run-of-the mill family photos:

  • Khloe and Kylie Photo
  • Kylie and Bruce Jenner: Eff Off!

The biggest Kylie kontroversy of the moment involves her rapidly changing face.

That may be why on the same day that Kylie addressed lip injection rumors on Twitter, she posted the lip-centric pic of her  and Khloe on the left.

Of course, despite her last name, Kylie is a Kardashian at heart, so naturally she’s involved in more than one controversy at the moment.

The other major family scandal of recent weeks also involves surgical rumors.

Chatter about the possibility of a Bruce Jenner sex change has been around for months, but the rumor mill has been going harder than ever this week after Bruce was spotted wearing nail polish on a golf outing.

Perhaps that’s why Kylie and Bruce decided to show their unpainted middle fingers to the haters.

If Kylie was trying to send a message with these pics then she might be a PR genius. Of course, it’s possible that we’re reading way too much into her latest posts. 

Maybe the girl just really, really loves Instagram.


Kendall and Kylie doing what they do best. What these girls have done before camera phones?

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Kittens Recreate Gone Girl, Present… Gone Purrl!

The following video features a number of kittens recreating the smash hit movie Gone Girl, with one cat voicing the character of Ben Affleck and another voicing the character of Rosamund Pike and…

… we had you at “kittens recreating Gone Girl,” didn’t we?

Courtesy of the genius folks at The Pet Collective, check out thus purr-fect re-enactment now:

This isn’t the first time cats have come to life as iconic movie characters.

Remember Guardicats of the Galaxkitty? Or the time a handful of kittens did their version of the Fifty Shades of Grey trailer? Talk about something that’s disturbing and hilarious!

We guarantee you’ve never seen a cuter version of an adult psychological thriller, based on a book, than the video posted above.

Feast your eyes now on “Gone Purrl” and then on these awesome cat photos:

Inception Cat

It’s a cat…holding a kitten…which is holding a kitten. Is the top still spinning? Someone get Leo D. on the phone ASAP.

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Jennifer Aniston’s possible Oscar contender ‘Cake’ finally finds a distributor


Jennifer Aniston had the difficult task of promoting her latest film, Cake, during the Toronto International Film Festival in September. The difficulty was that Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt had just gotten married. Aniston solved her PR problem by wearing a see-through top with no bra and getting her publicist to encourage lots and lots of Oscar talk. Cake got decent reviews at TIFF and People Mag (and other outlets) dutifully claimed that Aniston could be a legit Oscar contender this year. The problem? Cake didn’t pick up an American distributor at TIFF. More than a month passed, and still no distributor. What happened next is very interesting:

After the dark comedy Cake set tongues wagging at Toronto about Jennifer Aniston’s performance, there has been speculation that the film’s makers would capitalize on that momentum by putting the movie out before year’s end to qualify for Oscar consideration. Cinelou Films’ producers Mark Canton and Courtney Solomon have launched a new prestige arm in Cinelou Releasing, and they have set Cake as their first film. The pic will have a one-week qualifying run in December before rolling out in January. Canton, Kristin Hahn and Ben Barnz produced with Solomon.

“When my life and producing partner Ben Barnz and I first read Cake just fourteen months ago, we knew we had to go to Jennifer Aniston. It was the most obvious un-obvious choice – she’s mega-talented, but we’ve never seen the whole range of her extraordinary comic and dramatic abilities showcased in one role,” said director/EP Daniel Barnz.

Cinelou Releasing will launch up to four films over the next year, and you can belatedly add this to all of the rising distribution companies that made statement transactions at Toronto. The label has a deal with Warner Bros. Pictures to handle international distribution for six of its films over the next three years. “We congratulate Mark Canton and Courtney Solomon on their new company,” said Warner Bros. International Distribution president Veronika Kwan Vandenberg. “We look forward to our upcoming international collaborations with them beginning next year with Cake.”

“Having a U.S. distribution arm was always part of our strategy to be in control of the creative, marketing and financial results of our films,” said Solomon. “We were very pleased with how Cake turned out and are excited about all the opportunities the film presents on multiple levels…Cinelou was formed to produce brave, bold and interesting films that both challenge and showcase talent.”

Said Canton: “We’re very proud and excited that our new distribution banner will allow Cake to be released with the same passion and commitment that went into making the film.”

[From Deadline]

This is interesting on two levels. One level, the level that people are reacting to right now, is that Aniston is making a play for an Oscar campaign. Aniston and her people want to launch something centered around her performance. Will she end up getting a nomination? Doubtful. She might end up with a Spirit Award nomination though. The other level of interest is what was happening behind the scenes to even get this film distributed in America. It honestly sounds like NO ONE wanted to distribute it at all and Cinelou had to pull their new distribution arm together within the last month, just to push Cake… and Jennifer Aniston.


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Kim Kardashian works so hard: ‘I don’t think reality TV gets the respect it deserves’


Kim Kardashian made an appearance at the Re/code conference on Monday in California. She sat down for a Q&A session and she ended up talking about her branded video game (which is still making crazy money), her favorite phones and her reality show. You can read the full coverage here – there were plenty of eye-roll moments, but all in all… she has been ahead of the social media curve most of her adult life, you know? Some highlights:

When asked why people don’t take her seriously: “I don’t know. That is a question that sometimes I get frustrated with. I pride myself with my work ethic, and I work really hard. I think when people hear that I might have gotten success off of a ‘reality show,’ they take that as a negative. We’re in our tenth season. We have more episodes than ‘I Love Lucy.’ We have so many milestones that people don’t think about.”

She works really hard, you guys: “I wake up every single day at 6 am, and go to the gym, and get my daughter up, feed my baby, film all day, sometimes don’t finish until 8 or 9 pm, and that’s every single day, six days a week, for five months straight while we’re filming … I don’t think reality TV gets the respect it deserves.”

Being called “the Olympics of oversharing”: “I’ve always just been open. I’ve been super-open with my life, and that’s just who I am, and that’s how my family is, too,” Kardashian West responded, noting later in the interview that she handles all of her social media posting — and seemed genuinely flabbergasted that other celebs might have teams do this for them.

She is NOT paid $10,000 per tweet: “I would have been tweeting every two seconds if it was true.”

Loving Instagram: “I’m loving Instagram. I think you can be really creative, and a little more intimate. It has more texture than just words, obviously… [I have] a three-image rule. In the same setting, I try not to do more than three. It oversaturates my feed.”

She’s loyal to Blackberry: “I love my BlackBerry. I don’t understand the reaction I get when I say that. It’s my heart and soul, I love it and I’ll never get rid of it. I do have an iPhone, and I use it for photos. But if you write an email and you need to type fast — I like having the [key]board. They don’t even have them in stores anymore. I buy them on eBay. It’s a BlackBerry Bold. And I like to have three in my room that I line up in case they break.”

Her iOS Kim Kardashian: Hollywood game and whether it’s really made $200 million: “We’ll never talk dollars and cents … It could be more. It could be less. It’s been very good to me.”

[From Re/code]

She also said that she’s working with video game people to add more “characters” to the game and it sounds like there will be some updates that will probably add up to even more $$$ for Kim. As for her Blackberry obsession – I’ve known people, professional people, who are still very loyal to their Blackberries too. I think it’s just like Apple loyalty – it’s just a preference for user-friendliness and some people are happier with the feel of a Blackberry.

Oh, and she really needs to stop comparing Keeping Up with the Kardashians with I Love Lucy. STAHP.


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Amy Poehler: Feminism questions ‘get us to talk sh-t about each other’

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I hope you’re not tired of Amy Poehler yet. She’s been everywhere to promote her new Yes Please book. She’s talked about divorce advice and aging. Amy visited David Letterman and wore this cute, red plaid coat. She told Dave how she wanted to set fire to the Parks & Rec set during the show’s final episode. Amy also visited Howard Stern (via Popwatch) and admitted she went on a one-off date with Uncle Jesse John Stamos and “blew it.” Amy says she didn’t realize it was a romantic outing until it was too late. She then admitted to enjoying pr0n and apologized to her father. You can listen to that whole episode here.

What I’d like to talk about is Amy’s visit to AOL Build where she talked about the celebrity feminism discussion. Amy’s referring to the routine questions by journalists with nearly every starlet. Some have passed, but most have failed the inquiry. Here’s what Amy has to say about this popular topic:

“This discussion — the media discussion of who is and isn’t a feminist — is yet another example of the media attempting to divide us, to take us and split us apart, and our view among each other,” said Poehler. “So it’s like, ‘She said she was, she said she wasn’t, now she is, now she’s not, she made her one.’ It’s just bullsh-t. It’s yet another attempt to get us to talk shit about each other, for people to bait you into [responding to] ‘What do you think about so and so?’”

First of all, it’s none of my business what they they want to say or do — that’s what feminism is. And also, what you believe or say at 20 is different at 40, is different at 60. I think as women, we need to continue to constantly celebrate what we have in common and share, and stop letting this society focus on how we’re different. It’s really frustrating. Yet again, the topic of feminism is another example of people cooping it, taking it out of our hands, and we have to kind of take it back.

[From AOL Build]

Amy previously covered Elle and told the magazine that she is a feminist. She says some actors and musicians avoid the term, which is to say, “I don’t really believe in cars, but I drive one every day and I love that it gets me places and makes life so much easier and faster and I don’t know what I would do without it.” Amy gets it. She’s also calling all of us out for our scrutiny of actresses and singers. Are we all guilty as charged? A lot of young women are afraid of the F-word. Discussing the term openly can only fix that fear and confusion.

Amy Poehler

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Eddie Redmayne claims he’s not a movie star: ‘I’m just trying to pay my mortgage’

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Eddie Redmayne isn’t my particular cup of tea, looks-wise. He’s too pretty and model-y for my taste, although I’ve seen many photos of him where all I can think is “wow, such a beautiful, interesting face.” So, is this the best photo of Eddie on the cover of Variety? Nope. I think they were aiming for sultry and it just became… weird. The Variety article is about Eddie’s career thus far, how he struggled to find work in the early days, and how he prepared for The Theory of Everything and playing Stephen Hawking. It’s a great read – go here to read the whole thing. Eddie comes across as a really nice dude with a big group of friends and colleagues who adore him. He even talks about Benedict Cumberbatch and the possibility that two posh Brits could be going head-to-head for the Best Actor Oscar. Some highlights:

Eddie on his friend Benedict Cumberbatch: “I totally see why people are (comparing us), because of the subject matter; we both play geniuses. But I won’t be engaged in that. I think he’s the most beautiful actor. I’ve long admired his work, and continue to do so. I hope there’s room for both our films.” Cumberbatch had played Hawking in a 2004 BBC TV movie, and the actor’s name even showed up on set one day, when “Theory of Everything” was filming at his old boarding school. “There was this hilarious moment when we were shooting a scene at Harrow School,” Redmayne says. “There was a wooden board with names engraved on it, and by my head was ‘B. Cumberbatch.’ I’m like, ‘Dude, you’re haunting me!’ I took a selfie of me dressed as Stephen and sent it to Ben.”

He’s not a movie star: “A movie star is someone who has to open a film to gazillions of dollars. I’m just trying to pay my mortgage.”

This is what Kristen Stewart says about him: “We had a great time together. This is not a word I use a lot, but it describes him perfectly. He is a f–king lovely man. And he’s astounding as an actor. He’s the type of actor, and guy, you want to go on an adventure with.”

His time in LA, struggling with Andrew Garfield, Tom Sturridge & Jamie Dornan: “You’d come over for a month. We used to go to the Standard Hotel in West Hollywood, and split a sandwich between us because that meant we could get cheaper parking. We’d swim and play table tennis for hours. We were staying on friend’s agents’ floors, and renting places together. I’d be driving the cheapest rental car. But then you’d get to turn up at the CAA party. All these huge limos would arrive. I’d be in this red blob.”

E.L. James dissed him when he said he would be open to playing Christian Grey: “She took to her Twitter feed to go, ‘Under no circumstances!’ I was like, all right, all right! Am I that bad? I can put a whip in my hand. I can get all kinky, can’t I? Apparently not.”

[From Variety]

He should take it as a badge of honor that E.L. James dissed him. That should get him MORE work. Anyway, most of the article is about the process Eddie went through to show Hawking’s physical deterioration and it’s pretty clear that Eddie put a ton of work and research into the role. Hawking even liked Eddie’s performance so much, he agreed to lend his computerized voice to the film to make Eddie’s performance more authentic. Eddie also says that Hawking totally flirted with Felicity Jones, the actress playing Hawking’s first wife. Here’s something else I didn’t know: at one point, early in the process of casting this film, producers wanted Michael Fassbender. That would have been a fascinating casting choice, but I’m glad it went to Eddie.

So, if it does come down between Benedict’s Alan Turing and Eddie’s Stephen Hawking, who has the upper hand with the Academy? The Academy loves posh British actors, so that’s kind of a wash. I feel like Benedict is more “familiar” to the average Oscar voter, but I think Eddie’s physical transformation will be a huge factor. Sigh… I just hope they BOTH get nominated. Seriously.


Photos courtesy of Robert Maxwell/Variety.

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Adrian Grenier on Entourage’s misogyny: ‘When I first read the script, I declined’

Adrian Grenier goes a shirtless dip while on the beach with his girlfriend in Miami
Here’s Adrian Grenier, 38, shirtless on the beach and going for a run in Miami yesterday. He’s a good looking guy he’s just much hotter to me when his hair is wet. I had the pleasure of seeing Grenier in person a couple of years ago. I thought the same thing back then, that he needed a haircut, but I have a thing for bald men.

Grenier is of course known for his work on HBO’s Entourage, which was finally made into a movie over three years after the series wrapped in September, 2011. The film is coming out in June, 2015. In the interim Grenier has focused on filmmaking, he’s made documentaries such as Teenage Paparazzo and the new six minute film, Bee’s Invoice (you can watch it here). Bee’s Invoice is about the hidden economic value of natural resources and makes the case that good environmental policy is good economic policy. It’s highly stylized and is both informative and entertaining. Grenier is a thoughtful person who is trying to make a difference, at least that’s the impression I had after seeing him speak.

In a new interview with The Daily Beast, Grenier addresses the main argument against Entourage – that it’s misogynistic in that the female characters are just vessels for male fantasy. He defends the show, which is understandable but I don’t know if he makes a good case here. There’s a lot more to the interview and you can read it on The Daily Beast. Here are some excerpts:

One criticism often levied at Entourage was the depiction of women on the show—that they were, by and large, empty vessels merely meant to service the needs of the male characters or serve as eye-catching “scenery.”
Right. Eye-candy. Great furniture, though? [Laughs] I would disagree. When I first read the script, I declined to audition. I said, “This is misogynistic, it’s base, it’s immature, and superficial. Pass.” I was ultimately convinced otherwise, and I’m very glad that I was. In retrospect, I was wrong. On the surface, yes, it may be that. It’s candy in a lot of ways—and not just the women, but the conspicuous consumption and indulgence of cars, drugs, parties, and so forth. It’s a male fantasy in a lot of ways.

But at its core, and I think the reason why the show lasted so long, is that it’s about brotherhood and friendship. It’s about the values that transcend all of that stuff and actually allow them to survive all that glitz and glamour. Plus, I don’t know if you’ve ever been to Hollywood, but the show is a reflection of reality. There are a lot of women there who give women a bad name because of the way they portray themselves, carry themselves, and indulge themselves, and there are a lot of men who help to propagate that. So to ignore that reality would be disingenuous. And this isn’t a “activism” show. I’d tell Doug, “Come one, do they have to drive a Hummer? What are we trying to say about the environment? Can they drive a Prius?” And he’d tell me, “That’s not who these guys are. It would not be authentic if they drove a Prius.” And I respected that, because it held a mirror to reality.

Also, a lot of the tertiary “wallpaper” characters on the show are eye-candy, but many of the recurring characters are strong women. Dana Gordon. Sloan. Ari’s wife. Vince’s girlfriends. Carla Gugino’s character. Sasha Grey was… empowered. [Laughs]

[From The Daily Beast]

I think that Grenier is saying that the women were wallpaper because that’s the reality of that situation, just like the fact that his character drove a Hummer. The show wasn’t endorsing that lifestyle, it was just portraying it authentically. He’s also admitting that it’s not something he condones and that he did have a knee jerk reaction to how misogynistic it was, which he eventually got over. I don’t have a dog in this fight because I never got into Entourage. I tried to watch it, it was just too much of a bro show for me to enjoy.

Grenier also admitted that he was involved in collective bargaining with the other cast to make sure they got the best deal for the movie. He said, of the controversy over the wait to make the film, that it was “Politics and it’s sh*t-talking. People are looking for controversy, and they’ll find it if they have to. You negotiate, and until the deal is done, there is no movie… Our contracts on the show were one thing and then after that there were no contracts, so some players wanted to manipulate that fact. But we decided as a team to stick together, and stand united.” Good for them. He seems like a stand up guy.

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Adrian Grenier goes a shirtless dip while on the beach with his girlfriend in Miami

Adrian Grenier goes out for a rigorous jog on the beach in Miami

Adrian Grenier goes a shirtless dip while on the beach with his girlfriend in Miami
Adrian Grenier goes a shirtless dip while on the beach with his girlfriend in Miami
Adrian Grenier goes a shirtless dip while on the beach with his girlfriend in Miami
Adrian Grenier goes a shirtless dip while on the beach with his girlfriend in Miami
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Adrian Grenier goes out for a rigorous jog on the beach in Miami
Adrian Grenier goes out for a rigorous jog on the beach in Miami

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Tori Spelling refuses to change her lifestyle: ‘My dad wouldn’t have wanted it’

Tori Spelling is still milking her messy life for Lifetime’s True Tori show that airs on Tuesdays. The last we heard, Tori was under quarantine in the hospital. Lifetime’s keeping the ball rolling with a new promo video where Tori cries about her financial woes. She’s only making $50,000 this season, and her mom says she can spend that in one store. So Tori is freaking out about how to make more money.

In the video, Tori refuses to downsize her family’s lifestyle. Dean McDermott stands there with a lizard on his shoulder (?), and Tori just whines about the injustice of it all. Here’s a transcript:

Tori: [crying] “I’m sorry. I just feel reponsible for so many people, and I can’t do it. The responsibility of having to take care of so many people financially. And the fear of that? It doesn’t matter. People, they look at me, and they’re like [sarcastically], ‘Oh, poor you.’”

Dean: “No they don’t.”

Tori: “Like, boo hoo. You have so many problems.”

Dean: “No they don’t, baby.”

Tori: “We live paycheck to paycheck. After this, I have no f—ing idea if work’s going to come in. And look at the life we’re leading. We pay for five f—ing private schools.

Dean: “Baby, we can change our lifestyle. We can. We can get rid of all that stuff.”

Tori: [weeping bitterly] “But why should we have to??? My dad wouldn’t have wanted this. I’m just so mad. He worked so f—ing hard. These kids. I don’t want to have to struggle. I don’t want to change our lifestyle. That’s why I work so hard. I don’t want to change. ”

[From Lifetime - True Tori]

Tori feels entitled to live in the lifestyle she grew accustomed to as a child. If Aaron Spelling wanted Tori to maintain that level of wealth, he would have left her more than $800,000. I can’t feel too bad for Tori. She’s made millions off reality shows and book sales, but she’s blown it all on real estate and luxury goods. Also, why is she paying for five private school educations? Tori and Dean only have four children.

A few more Tori updates:

* The Mail says Tori told Dean to get a vasectomy. She doesn’t want more babies with him because of the Emily Goodhand affair. I guess Tori no longer believes that a vasectomy is not affordable.

* Radar has a clip where Dean tells Tori she’s using the microwave wrong. They start fighting. He asks, “Why are you even with me?” Tori responds, “I don’t know anymore.” Such drama! They need a new script writer.

* TMZ says Tori’s hospital visit is sketchy. She’s reportedly been “faking illness to the point she is actually making herself sick. The Ebola craziness was never real … but Tori created such drama around it, staying up days at a time and not eating … she made herself sick and her health is compromised.” That sounds completely believable. Tori loves the dramz.

Tori Spelling

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